did you ever?

if you would have looked back at least ones, i would have come to you , i'm letting go now but if i where to wish one thing is to relive the happiest of pass days even if it was a moment in illusion , you hate me so much and make it so clear , why? i did a lot of wrongs but you also did others and yet i sat down waiting for you at the end all these years thinking that maybe you love me a little , a fragment of how you immensely did ones or so i though , but i was foolish to believe like me you loved ones and for ever , till the end of times but you never did , i hurt you but i begged for forgiveness late yes very late but after some days i said lets make it work and you said no because you could not take someone back another time since i said that i don't forgive more then ones but i did and you where the one saying no , was i not clear in saying i loved you back then , afterward you dated someone in less then a month and then another one to forget me ? no i think not i was an excuse for you to hate and i was ashamed , scared but wanting you back , why could you not do the same ?  yes love is not something forced but why act like you where so in-love when you never where not even a bit, if i'm wrong say it you tell me not to make assumptions but you never say anything not ever and to be honest i don't think you will ever ...and to be even more honest i could care less...